0 The Stoneheart

As predicted the drizzle has started. He said to himself with a tiny smile on the corner of his lips as if it's the reflection of the happiness within him. He switched on the wiper and they danced in rhythm of the music played by rain.

Today google is quite accurate in weather predictions.

she said with a teasing smile on her face.

Yes. he said now with a broader smile. They looked at each other. Their eyes met, they were meant to be. But next second the pothole played foul, the car jerked. he looked to the road. The raindrops were trickling on the cold skin of the windshield trying to write the unspoken words between the two.

Oh hoo...So today one of your wishes has come true. Someone is really happy haan ...Your happiness is coming out from within you. She said smiling.
 

He blushed.

Nothing like that re...

No no... even you can dance by stopping the car also.. giggled she teased and inched his waist. Drive carefully or else you will hit the potholes again.

mm hmm. indeed I am happy. It's not like that I have never drove in rain. I just love it! if possible I would drive whole day in rain. But petrol has to come free. He said rubbing his palms on the steering in a relaxing pose.

Ohh! Someone is daydreaming, but that definitely is not going to come true for sure. She said laughing.

Then I would manage if it comes at the price of water. 20 rupees per liter.

They both laughed.

But you know I will do it with my next car which will be electric. And you know your next car will be electric too. I am not gonna make you buy anything other than that. Ooops !

He bit his tongue. They looked at each other. She was confused. What was that? she was saying to herself.

They have never said I love you. Did he say that just now indirectly?

The rain had increased.

It was not the first time they had come on a drive. After meeting on a common friend's house warming 3 months back, They have become much closer friends today. But it was a special drive. He had always loved rain and driving in rain. Where She had never shown her interest towards it. But she didn't deny when this morning he asked her out for a drive with his child like excitement that as per Google's weather report it's going to rain. And they were on this drive.

He looked at her. She was looking outside on her window shield murmuring a 90's song, as if she is counting the tiny droplets on it. She always loved singing and she has a beautiful voice.

She seems to be happy. He said to himself.

But happy for rain? or his happiness? His mind asked him.

Hadn't he called her stone heart somedays back when they had a stupid fight on initial days? He still remebers how she cried after reading that long text.

Hey ! isn't there a road connecting to that hill temple somewhere here?

Yes we just crossed that. why?

Nothing..

Say say..

Arey no... somewhere here I and Vijay had come once.

Vijay? he had to come now?

Arey na.. I just ...

He pulled over the car and before she could think anything he pulled her face held firmly and kissed. He closed his eyes, taking her lower lip between his lips as if  biting  with them and pulled until it slips. He did it again and again and kept doing it. with each bite his lips were making her lips wet with his saliva. Her lips quivering inside his lips. time stopped, but he didn't. He kept on kissing until a honking car came from front. The kiss is broken. They looked at each other, their breath heavy, chest heaving. He held her face again, this time to kiss her neck, all over of her neck, he moved up to her cheek and all over of it, both sides. Then he whispered in her ears You are mine.

They hugged each other. The hug was different this time from the previous ones they used to give whenever they met. They kept hugging... tight. Nobody has counted the time.

The hug broke. They looked to the road sitting on their seats. The rain had stopped.The world had gone silent. So were both.  

Why did you do this? That too all of a sudden. She broke the silence.

I just felt it. I don't know. I had that long pending anger in that stupid. They way he behaved.

So? anger was on him and you kissed me?

just felt to make you mine.

He looked at her so did she. 

 

Let's go It's getting late and I am feeling hungry. She looked at the road and said.

Yeah same here. Market is just few minutes away, We will get something. He Started the car.

Wait, I guess this is my turn to give the treat.

Is it?  Ahem ! then I am the king today. I am not going to get down from car. But get something heavy. I am darn hungry. It seems my stomach has ears.

Okay okay. I will, now don't be fulei.

Ha ha. yours fulei.

See there is a monginis on other side. Take a U turn

He took the U turn and stopped in front of the cake shop.

Go. and come soon.

He started making the playlist of her fav song, in fact they were his too. 

Played pal pal dil ke paas...

In 2 mins She returned. 

Here I came. 

Yes come come... It's my treat timeeeee.. he tried to make a song..

okay okay stop your singing and have.. else I will have all.

They took the paneer roll each.

wow yummmm.. It's good. He said. 

When you are hungry, everything tastes good. She said with is stuffed mouth.

They finished. as they were eating like a hungry lion couple eat their prey.

One mushroom puff left. She took it and tore it into two handed over to him.

They finished.

Actually I had brought it for you, but see I also took half. ha ha

It's okay I had enough.

they washed their hands.

Oopss ! I forgot my hanky today.

Take it.. 

She handed over her chunri. He looked at her and kept looking at her.

arey take it.. and wipe your hands. 

But...

Take baba.. 

There was that magic feeling on her face. Unspoken, undefined. He felt something touching his soul. He smiled, took her chunri and wiped & all the while he never looked away from her. 

His mind echoed.. stoneheart.

0 The Spring

Though its the month of November,
Why it suddenly became Spring of the year!

The moment I saw you, smitten with that look
I wish I could paint you on each page of my book,

I wanted to stop the time, right there with you,
for the gleam of your eyes, to lost in it's hue

How will I make me believe that I just met you
It felt as if I am the stream in a fountain found new,

Who said its the peacock only black mgiced by the rain,
When your lips quivered to dance, I drenched again n again,

Oh ! so it's you oh dear!
Then keep the spring forever...

3 YADA YADA YADA...

Yada yada yada...
dil bole dada dada dada...
the moment I saw youh,
mein hua fida fida fidah,

That smile on your face,
carries all the grace,
That glitter in your eyes,
always makes you ace,

Those curly hair of youu,
as if dark clouds in the vieww,
long and black in hue,
enough to kill me in seconds few,

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More I got close to your soul,
more attracted to it like a doll,
The witty stuffs, your odd beliefs,
felt like sailing in them with all reefs,

Never been a sinner me,
a simple nerd of all time,
invading in my dream,
you made me do the crime.

But With the apologies,
I accept the fault of mine..
though your beauty has magic,
forgetting my line was a tragic.

SOMETIMES MISTAKE HAPPENS BY US, HOW RIGHTEOUS WE MAY BE, HOW SIMPLE WE ARE. BUT IT'S LIKE THE ARROW LEAVING THE ARCH.. TILL WE REALIZE WHAT HAS HAPPENED IT HURTS MANY INCLUDING US... BADLY HURTS, LEAVING US WOUNDED.. FOR WHOLE LIFE & FOREVER. THAT'S THE ONLY PENANCE LEFT FOR US... RUINING JUST EVERY BEAUTIFUL THING BEHIND IT.

2 Will you marry me?

... So there is this Vivan kneels down in front of you and it starts raining in support of me. I hold your hand.. it's awkward you look left and right but then into my eyes, then only realize that you are getting drenched...deep.

"I know Payal Sharma,

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We haven't met so often, We haven't talked so frequently to know each other, I know that falling in love with an angel like you is a dream for me.. But truth is I have made a place for you in my heart..in my soul, I love you Payal.. right from the day I knew you. I may not be of your league..I may not have that big bank balance..I may not take you to Switzerland.. But Payal I promise I will keep you happy.. whatever I have given you and will give you is my best in the existing world and I bet nobody rich can match it... I will hold all the shopping bags when you will go for shopping, I will carry you in my arms to our apartment every time we will return from dinner (of course you have to maintain this figure ), yes we will find a sasta, sundar and tasty hotel for our dinner, I promise I will make coffee everyday and wake you up.. deal pakka deal. We will make love everyday till 70 ( I have increased 10 years from the age we used to discuss), I know I am not that good match so we may fight.. But when I will fight then you slap me.. when you will fight I will spank you..& hug you.  We will have our twin baby.. junior Vivan and Junior Payal. (payal is mine and Vivan is yours. take a note..I am not going to compromise) .... I pause.. you pause... 

will you marry me??

7 Life II...

Continued from  Life... (Part-I) 

He was on his way back to home and thinking of again about the possible situation there. Till now he has done enough studies by reading each and every article appears after typing "pregnancy, how to get pregnant, science of conception of child and all related terms on Google and his close friends were also coming with handy tips. He knew these 4-5 days are important to try when counted the ovulation time. He stopped his bike to the lone florist on his way to home and picked two most fresh roses of the bunch. Back home when reached her mood was light he could feel the first reaction she would give to him when he reaches normally tells everything and today it was her cute smile. "everything seems to be fine" He says to himself after hiding the roses as part of his so called big plan.

The dinner is finished. Crap !! the maid is not coming from last two days, he remembers. This means doing plates & utensils on own.  He thought of helping her doing the utensils. he doesn't like but there is no other way to make her join him early in  the bedroom. He enters into the kitchen and there she is already in work. tucking the drape into her waist she is at the sink. A deep look and she has still those perfect curves intact down her waist. Hair tied covering the skin the blouse always exposes.He felt like missing them. A sudden look back of her brings him back to reality. She smiles. he smiles back & starts arranging the utensils in the kitchen behind her 

"um humm someone is really generous today ! what's the matter ?" She says a bit cheekily 

"couldn't see a beautiful woman doing everything all alone on her own."

"oh is it ? then where were you all these days?"

"I was observing"

"what"

"you are lacking energy in our "us time". so thought of saving some of your's by sharing your work"

"youuu naughty !.. and I don't think so that has ever happened. but there are times when you have excuses"

"oh that's past. but I am different today. aren't I ?" he holds her waist

"oh yes I can see that.. now will you go or ..."

he kissed his nape not letting her complete. "come soon I am waiting" He knows she was smiling.

Back in the bedroom he glanced with a quick look. he had a few minutes before she comes. quickly he takes out the roses. gets the petals out from two of them. puts it on the fan. one day before he had experimented this trick with some paper. "I guess this will work with petals and movie tricks in real life" he mumbles and slows down the fan speed. and keeps the other two. light the two candles and put it on the two sides of the two air conditioner. He tested it by switching the light off. "perfect !" the word comes out. he has done every thing what it needs now it's up to the luck. the miracle which their doc. said is needed for them. It's the intensity and passion which is going to work for them. and these 4-5 days he is going to give  every effort for her. they have tried some or other special things in during their initial married days. but not in recent years surely it's going to work. he had belief.

"why did you lock the door? what are you doing ?" she calls from out.

"wait a min.. opening.." he gets ready and pops his head out of the door.

"what's going on??" she yells

"turn around"

"why ??"

"just do it"

"but..." he didn't let her complete

he turns her and suddenly blindfolds her 

"what are you doing man ! you are crazy"

"yeah I am. now come" he pulls her in.

she feels the chilling effect of ac. he locks the door.

"so something is in your mind" 

"i know you are reading my mind and you surely are going to like it?" he puts her right under the fan where he knows the petals will fall.

"you can take off the blindfold" 

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she takes off. He just then switches on the fan. he knows the delay he had already adjusted the speed. The petals starts falling. movie things happen in real life.. . "wow it's so romantic..it's beautiful..." she looks at him, their eyes locked deep and intent with love. He steps backward and take out the roses... "for you" he had shortened it not being filmy but never making his eyes missing her's. she takes it and immediately hugged him. he hugs her back. "I love you" she  manages to say. "I love you too" she hears back. 

"The time stopped & forgot to move,

As the embrace weaved the net of  love,

Dissolved with the fragrance of rose petals,

breeze from fan played music to their souls,

Amidst the warm silence all around,
hearts pounded words million & beyond,

Passion waves rising up & higher,
made their clutch even tighter, 

His hands moved with strategy to kill,
She surrendered like a kitten against his skill,

With the Kisses, squeezes along with,
she ruffled & mumbled when he moved south.

He became proud, she was vulnerable already,
their bodies danced with each other's melody,

Lost in ecstasy eternal, they winded being one,
they kissed each other,  awaiting the new dawn."

"It's a miracle almost. now you need to take care of her" Dr. Mahi's word was reverberating in his mind. He was at the waiting in lounge out side of the delivery room. He had his eyes closed, resting his head to the wall. Amidst the prayers the nostalgic feelings was rolling in his mind like a flashback. It was the first sentence she had said after few silent hours of observation of her report of her gynecological  complication, when they visited her for for their first check up. 

But was this just a miracle happened to his life? Was the passionate lovemaking, her earnest desire to bear a life within her were the links for the miracle? Was the fact of his younger sister-in-law going to be mother first made any difference to their try for this cause? Did the taunting words of his mother make them closer and made them loving each other even more? Does the fact of "accepting life as it comes and facing it, enjoying it.." really plays a big role in one's life? Isn't life itself a miracle? He heard the cry of a baby in the delivery room.

(Sorry !! for being so late in the bath room and making you wait so long. Blame the peanuts )

6 Yes vs No

One insists on YES...
Other one counters NO,

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Why do I believe in that YES?
When I know it's a NO,

Futile though, in the noon, at morning four,
Longing eyes, look for her at the door...

Could this miracle happen in real?
Could I be heard for my prayer surreal?

Standing at the dead end, guilt borne.
Will she come? I ask myself often..

One answers YES!
Other one counters NO...

2 Come Back...

My sky lightened, sudden but brightest ever,
made me happy, It was you.. I was sure,

Is that happiness, I was feeling?

I can't believe, I had lost it in days between,

Before I absorb your beauty in my soul,
you vanished with a thunder making me fall,

It is dark again without your face bright,

I know I am faulty but you won't get one more right,

Come again oh dear ! Hit me all over,

But don't you go away promise me.. never.

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0 The TABULA RASA story

He calculated... recalculated it again & again by his own statistical method, the chance of finding her or getting any trace of her in the sea of crowd in the fair was less than 1 %. The whole sultry afternoon he has been weighing the should and should‘ve with the logical balance his mind has created. Then someone inside said him that he can get some inputs for his business even. He looked at the clock on the wall in front of him rolling continuously without making any sound as if it had all it’s plan to slip out. It was 4 PM. He sprung up from the mattress laid bed and picked up the best pair of clothes a black pant and a navy blue shirt. It took less than a minute to wear them, he was a kind of hurrying. When he was ready he checked himself on his mirror and looked directly into his own eyes. A voice resonated “you have to do it… you have to give it a try”.

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He was on his bike throttling fast to the annual business fair in the city inaugurated 4 days back.  It was Sunday and he has this belief that she would come… she would come as she always do. Not just this fair she never misses any major event in the city & he smiled remembering how she loved discussing her experience with him. She was a free spirited bird in the free spirited culturally rich city.  But the belief that he had scratched in his sodden heart was getting washed away with the giant waves of flash backs of her memory. Just like the day they were on beach and he tried to capture a snap of her name written on the sand along with the approaching waves. waves kept on washing away her name. The more the wave washed her name the more he tried again being determined and he succeeded. Love is always a craziness between the two hearts. Will I succeed today even? He asked himself.

They were together for 3 years not much time after he saw her in a social gathering. She was in a black tops and blue jeans. A Red scarf with black embroidery hung around her neck was making her elegant among all the girls. Her open black hair was a perfect match to her fair skin. With perfect length they were like a second plateau in the dark sky night. Displayed to the front they ended just down the perfect hills. Her kajal lined eyes had a special glitter, like the brightest star in the sky. Fluttering in rhythm with her natural lipstick-less lips when she was talking they made magic to him. The long fingers had red nail-paint. The wrist watch was simple leather band one and was another match to the black beauty. The diamond and gomed rings were topping which were saying she believes in astrology. Like many guys in the party he couldn’t take his eyes off of her. He didn’t want to miss even a second of watching her and during this long gaze. Perhaps somehow his abruptly fast beating heart beats sent some connecting vibes to the beautiful heart she had possessed. Towards the end he found her looks fixed on him.

He pressed the brake on the red signal. It was the last traffic on his way to the fair. Signal turned green and he pushed the start button and throttled hard to reach the odometer at 70. The determination stiffed his forehead again. The voice inside him echoed again that “ I have to meet her once no matter what she says .. no matter how she reacts but he has to tell her what made him fail to be good lover, what made their love story failed, just one meeting and I will not wish anything… I will not pray for anything .. he remembered Ganesha his favorite, with the momentary close of his eyes…

...To be continued.

14 Monkey Business

Caution: This article depicts a serious business. You must be above 5 to read as well as understand. Read at your own risk. Parents advice solicited.


It was another Sunday. Though I could sense that it is more than my normal wake up time I felt like lying on my bed. Secret is I was trying to hop into my dreamland again from which I just was brutally pulled out by sounds of different frequencies, emitted cyclically at the other side of my room... sign of typical village morning. 
Dam-it ! the dream was incomplete again. I said to myself. 
I was in an island and dancing with this girl. I really love this feature of dream, you can do anything whether or not related to real life there. Don't know who she was. But certainly it was not my wife. she was a lot slimmer, beautiful, gorgeous, sexy and.. (you search for the adjectives and let me know through the comments I will put it here) she was wearing something which I can't think of my wife wearing even in my weirdest dreams. Thank God ! He has not programmed us to peep into other's dream. or else I would be thrown out of my house in that dream itself.

Leave it.. I consoled myself. 
Hopefully next sunday she will again come into my dream and hopefully this time the dream will reach at next level. sigh ! lot of hopes.. 
But why didn't the Romans keep two Sundays in a week. Morons.. Pure morons.. as if they had to loose their balls by putting another sunday in a week. or else they could have shortened the week. 10-15 gold coins to each senate of Julius Caeser or Octavian could have easily done the work. Ok read it gold plated. Stupid me am thinking as if my forefathers have left a gold mine for me.
I wish I could travel past.. I should seriously think of this invention !

My clock showed 8 on it's flat face. I left the bed hurriedly but stopped in front of mirror to check how I am looking as if I have changed in last night from what I was looking yesterday.. I smiled while brushing my hair to settle them. 
darn! this stomach.. don't know when I will get it flat.. I said myself while tucking it in. I don't know why girls don't like curvy men while men are mad for curvy women... dirty fashion. But seriously this could have saved us from regular workouts. 
...anyways today is Sunday I can skip my crunches. someone said. 
Suddenly my phone beeped the SMS tone.

"Good morning :-)... have a great day ahead"

message was from Monkey-miss aka Dimple. My best friend. she is so sweet.. Now I am almost habituated  with her text messages.. It seems that this Short Message Service is quite a tough string to hold us together our long distance relationship (read friendship).

"Good morning ! :-) just woke up.. feeling hungry"

I replied. Finally I discovered that my unsettling hairs have grown up enough to make me look messy and now they need a punishment of getting chopped. I was about to go to the bathroom again it beeped again.

"Have you got office today? or staying at home? " 
If she would have been someone else I would have teased her if she has any plan for a date. 

"don't know till now no call from the DON" (pet name of my boss.)

After returning from bathroom I checked my cell again.

"I have something important to talk to you. are you free now?" 
Now what important has she got to tell me..

"well... have to go for a haircut.. you can write for the time being will call you as soon as I ll make myself free."

I decided to walk to the saloon instead of taking my bike. It will be good substitute for work out

"yesterday the JP MORGAN guy talked to me and liked me even I liked his approach he seems to be nice"
Few days back she said me about this guy. Even I liked the proposal after listening about him.

"Oh is it?? poor guy ! seems someone is going to be sacrificed soon :P"

I reached at the saloon and there were 3 people still in queue ahead of me. so I started scanning one of the magazines there..and my cell vibrated again.

" But he seems to be a bit orthodox. he asked me directly whether I have any boy friends and friend who are boy or not?"

"So ?"
"I said yes I have some and he said he doesn't like to be friend with boys. So I won't be able to talk to you from coming Friday... My engagement day. That's why I asked you whether you are free? Wanted to talk to your for last time"


I didn't reply this sms. I was going to trauma by the high voltage shock. Felt like scolding her. How could she say like that..  I knew this female race.. selfish ! even chameleon  will take some time to change color. okay fine.. let her be happy with her Murga... 
while I was thinking all these...again my cell vibrated.


"I will let you know my marriage date. You have to come. I want to meet you for the last time."

What the hell it is.. am I a scapegoat who is being fed last time before handing over to butcher.. Thank god she is not in front of me or else I would have pulled her hair and scratched her face..  what game she is playing?? you don't want to talk to me.. you are calling me to your marriage and that is last time.. what the f..
cell again  beeped...
"Tell me you are coming"
Didn't want to make her mood off, so I replied...
"yes lemme see.. send the invitation first"
I sighed..  from now on wards won't reply any of her message.. seems the day is not good itself...I said to myself..
"you color changing chameleon ! you promised that you will come" 
There was no limit for my astonishment after receiving this sms. what a girl she is ?? who is changing color?
"will you please leave me alone for sometime?? and by the way am at saloon and it's my turn now... take care"
was my reply but then she called me.
I didn't pick up the call. Didn't want to even... some time was necessary for settlement of the tornado of feelings which was twisting my blood vessels of my heart.
Received a sms after the ring...
"you are my first April fool"


What ! ... what did you think there will be a trading of monkeys and you will count the profit and loss?? Now when you have finished reading go straight to the comment box and dump your abuses.. Khee Kheee (imagine my 32 teeth- powered by Happydent).

3 Im-Perfect !

"I know how hard you tried,
I couldn't be the one you always cried !


But for you & your loved ones, 
I ll always be there,


I promise your ascending steps
 will never be devoid of my care..


Thank you for arranging me !"

4 T(R)WO FATES

Fate one

She just had returned from shopping and had lunch. Before laying on bed she looked at the calendar on the wall. Yes 46 more days and Then she will be all P's. Almost everything is over for the marriage. The smile flew from her heart and clang to her curvy lips. She lied on bed and thought of P. How much he loves her, understands her feelings. 

Just then her cell beeped. Some unknown number was flashing She was no mood to disturb her thoughts. she let it ring till it got disconnected. But to her surprise the ring came again. This time she picked up with a grumpy mood. 

She: Hello !

He: Hi !

The voice was familiar. someone of more close. But she couldn't remember.

She: Yes. Who is this?

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He: Yesh I knew you can't recognize. and why should you? 

His voice was getting heavy.

She couldn't believe her ears. is it really him? Oh my god? 

She: You ?

He: Yes me S

Tears appeared in the corner of her eyes...

He: How are you ?

She: I am good. You?

He: does it matter?

She: You never tried to know..

He: yeah I know it's all my fault.

She tried to suppress her state of sobbing

She: so you still remember me.

He:  When did I forget and do you think I can?

She; everything is possible in this world and then time is there. it helps.

He: So you were trying to forget me.

She: it doesn't matter now S.. I am getting married next month.

He: But what about me?? what about us? our relationship??.. of 12 long years.. How can you do that? doesn't they matter to you T?? "I love you".. I love you T... 

She couldn't hold more... tears were already flowing but after listening this she held away the phone and cried..The world stopped right there... 

He: T...? T...? He was calling again and again

She: yes..  she replied acting normal.

He: I am going today in eveining flight. want to meet you. in our old place and our usual time.

She: It's of no use. Nothing is left. everything is fixed. 5th is the date. You took a lt of time S. You remember.. I expressed...I pleaded... I waited.. Just an yes would have been enough for me to wait for you for lifetime.. But  you excused your settlement.

He: Nothing is changed T.. I just want to meet you. I can explain.

She: But I don't want any... leave me as I am. P is a good person. He took care of me well in last 2 years He will keep me happy and moreover he loves me even after knowing about you.

He: But I just want to meet you once.. say yes.. for me... for our those 12 years.. I have done ticket. I will wait.. and I know you will come.. come for the shake of our love. just once...

she became silent..

He: say yes T

She: don't make late.

He: I love you.. kisses.

After putting down the phone suddenly P appeared in front of her eyes.. he was just smiling innocently as he always does. tears were still in her eyes. She was confused..confused for the love of 12 years which she has always craved and the man who loves her and committed to be with her  for rest of his life. He took care of her when she was broken. He has a good family. good job and he is marrying her early only (in spite of his recent job) to take her out of this depression.. the depression which is originally gifted by S. He has struggled with his family for her.. to approve their love. Can she dump him??

She picked her cell ..

Fate two:

It was Spring. The park has become full even before 4. She was waiting for him between the children with their mummies and the couples holding each other's hands. She looked at her watch. damn ! the time is not rolling. Whenever she wants this time to roll fast it will slow down. She still has 30 mins more. Don't know he will reach in time or will make late as usual. In spite of being a girl she always has waited for him. "don know why do I love him so much" She said to herself. someone from inside replied he is the one... she smiled.

But last some days have been rough. She had made him agree to meet  surely but was in deep thought how to convince him. Don't know what has happened to him. The couple who were the example between their friends are "no no nothing will happen.. everything will be in track today" she said to herself. After all she has always won whenever there were fighting and this time she has put everything on bet. just to get him back. Whenever they had a fighting which usually she wittily wins and convinces him he always teases her saying "Toppers always top" ..in everything.

"damn me" she said again. Thinking of her IAS coaching in Delhi. Situation wouldn't have been this bad if she wouldn't have decided to go out of his sight. But he himself had pressed her to go for IAS after she topped in college. It was he who said that coaching in Delhi is the best in country. She can't forget their one day trip to the sea beach when she topped in state level.

."Yes this is called fate"  she sighed. She has been a practical girl from her child hood. Never allowed this stuff of love to touch her. But never she noticed when N's love touched her heart and acquired it and today this practical girl has lost everything and ready to loose whetever she has left for the love of her life.

"Hi !"

She came out of the nostalgia. It was him. After a gap of six months she was meeting him. He has the same charm in his eyes.. But perhaps he has put on some weight. She smiled...
"Hi ! .. let's go there it' crowded here"
she said pointing a empty bench in a comparatively less crowded corner.
They started walking but this time he didn't hold her hand unlike others and unlike past meetings. She felt it.. she wanted it.. was looking in his eyes from the corner of her eyes. He was different this time. The pain which was already poking seemed to be started to hammer her heart.

They sat on the cement cast bench.
She: You seem to have put a bit weight..
He:yeah two kg

She: Why are you so rude?  still angry with me.?
He: No I am not neither angry nor rude. it seems so may be..

She held her hand this time. couldn't stop herself. "N I am sorry .. very Sorry.. please forgive me"
He: No there is nothing to be forgiven.. It's all my fault. I was thinking our love is eternal, pure.

She: It is N and it will be always.. It was just a formal ask.. I was so far and and I heard that you are with that bitch so I just... and  I do feel sorry N

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He: How could you do that S ?? You spied ?.. on me??? you could have asked me directly. Weren't we open enough... 
She: I am sorry N...
He: No S nothing is left. You don't have confidence in me. It' just finished..
She couldn't hold her tears anymore.
She: Oh N please don't say like that It's never the matter of confidence N, I have the confidence on you.. I love you.. I have given everything to you whatever felt right at that moment. Think of the past 5 years of our love. Think of the moments we spent together.
Still he was not showing any glimpse of emotion..
She called his name. "N...?"
"It's over S"
she literally bend down to hold his leg.. with tears flowing as if a line of water.. "N don't do this I beg of you !"
He:  "Oh S ! why are you creating a scene here in public place?"
He stood up and then she did.. they both looked at each other for a second & more before it is dark there.

She tried to wipe her tears with the hanky but it was all wet. She sat there on the bench soulless in the darkness around.

2 Something...

It's been months (5 months and 11 days precisely) I have not been to here. No I am  not blaming anyone or anything for the long absence. Just thought of taking a break and  it turned into a vacation. Thanks to my friends who kept me nudging to write "something". It's true that time do fly if it is not held. In this span a lot of changes to life has happened. Started new ventures, lost some good friends and there were incidents that took me close to the reality of life as well as etched my heart.


It all started when on that sunny day while on my way to office. I was happy and humming a song. The national highway was moderately crowded and certainly I also was maintaining the safe portion to my right. Every thing was good until a speeding car turned much left while overtaking the truck that was on my right. Before I could understand anything it almost had touched my bike with a frightening sound of braking. My heart pounded heavily and everything went silent. Thankfully I must be at a speed of around 50-55. Nothing happened except that deadly sound that till now I had only heard in movies. I gave the car way with a stern look to the driver as if he was going to care. It passed but all the movements around me had stopped. It was just blank for a moment.  Mind asked what would have happened if the touch was a collision. Felt like all bank with the scary thoughts and sudden burst of ""What if" questions. Thanked almighty again and again while the pictures of my closed ones started popping in front of me. Suddenly I was in love with my life. I always knew it is vulnerable but experience counts. It was one of the hardest day of my life to spend in the office. 

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While returning after the scary day I was about to cross the last traffic that comes on the way to office a scooter loaded with two men and a woman stopped by my side. The woman must be at her early thirties and was holding a kid perhaps of around 5-6 months in one hand. With her pink little frock and chubby cheek she was no way less than an angel. The innocent eyes filled with twinkles were glancing here and there from her mother's shoulder and stopped looking at me. Something pierced my heart. I was about to yell at the callous lady that at least wrap her well if you have no other option. But again thought that may be she is helpless to afford a rickshaw or auto. Suddenly she yawned, looked even more cute and again looked at me. The green light signaled  and they took the other turn. But the scene of those innocent eyes and the yawn was live on the rest of my way. I went philosophical as I was pushed towards another dimension of life. How helpless it can be. Why it is so? I reached home and took my kid in my hand looked into his eyes and kissed him. I felt "something" wet in my eyes.

13 Weird !

It was dawn & I was running incessantly that too on a road which seems to be like some highway or something but why? Certainly it was not jogging. It can’t be. I was in my jeans and vest so it can't be. Damn! I am bare foot too. Where are my shoes? Then why am I running at this hour of the day not sleeping at my home? What the hell is happening? And where am I on earth? Questions start erupting in my mind like popcorns on the fire making sounds louder to stop me. I stopped; it was getting bright and darkness was fading. Oh my God! I yelled to myself, how can I be here on this highway? After observing here and there I was recognizing the place, okay read it roads. It's way far from my home. The roads were swamp may be it had rained last night. But unlike those regular crowded days there was no sign of any human being. The scene was reminding me of apocalypse I had seen in some Hollywood movies. If yes, then I must be the protagonist saving the mankind. I felt proud and confident. I felt like wearing goggles. Every hero puts that on in such movie. Crap! I have my spectacle. I can’t. Anyways this would have been surely a different movie where hero fights with zombies putting his specta on. No even I can fight without specta too. I can see well. It’s just the small numbers or letters what I can’t see that too from a good distance. What if when zombie(s) will appear I will throw my specta to the sky and it will just fly up and up until I finished fighting. Yes! That would be a new thing. I will finished fighting and raise my hand looking down at the fallen dead zombie and the spec will fall directly to my hand. Wow!!  But what if, it’s just an overdose of watching horror(ible) movies. I shook my head & slapped myself, nothing changed. Everything was like that as before.  I have to reach home, but how? I moved my hand towards my butt. Sliding my palm smoothly on my jeans till it reaches... Stupid! Don think anything else I was checking my wallet.  Nah! don't even have my wallet. I see three people are coming towards me. Zombies? Another popcorn (read question) pops up. Where is my weapon? Nothing I got. Well may be I have to use my own hands and clever mind and no doubt I will kill them.. no hero gets killed by zombies.. I look at them... wait! they are not looking like zombies.. they ae looking like normal human beings. Suddenly a vehicle passes me. It had 6 wheels 2 of which were really big. No it was not any futuristic vehicle I had seen in movies. It was a tractor! And the people wanted a lift the tractor stopped. And they jumped into the trolley. Suddenly something struck to my mind. The tractor is going in the direction of my home. It may take me to my home. I run & run...& run just like a hero and jumps to the trolley and join them on board... the tractors keeps moving and we cross a bridge. Suddenly something happens. Everything went blank.

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I opened my eyes and found myself lying on some green field or something...I woke up looked here and there. It’s a new place with greenery & something like river was there. I looked to myself.  I was in a gorgeous shirt. My Hitz shoes were back in my feet. Yu whoo!! May be apocalypse is over! I screamed and started walking..nervousness was all over me... {is your mind popcorning up the question “where?” don’t worry I also didn't know where was I going so I kept going and you keep reading} I could see a house. It was not a mansion, a multistory building facing a beautiful garden, filled with flowers of different colors, damped in the morning dew {yes.. yes the dew of dropping dew}. I pluck a rose which I can reach standing there at fence. Looked here and there and plucked another one actually that seemed to be more beautiful and fresh. Don’t know why the house owner didn’t have any gate. Good for me. Then as if I know where I am going, I turned towards the left side of the house when the front door was right in front of me. I saw another door. Knocked it and there she was… the beautiful and the gorgeous without a single trace of makeup and the night suit was making her kind of sexy... she was more beautiful than her snap. I just stood there unmoved agape... Until she called me with my name in her sweet voice and pulled me inside. My heart beat became quite faster.. as if it will come out within next some minutes.. but I held her… held her tight to her hands each in my either hands.. and kept looking at her.. I couldn't took my eyes away.. Surely she had charmed me or I wanted to save all those in my memory. She smiled.. i replied with my smile.. and uttered “you are more beautiful than your snap…” She in her natural way said .. “Don’t talk much”. But I caught her blush and her face was glowing reddish. Couldn’t stay. pulled her into my warm arms to held her against my trembling heart.. as if she was waiting for this..and hugged me back..  It was eternal. Complete bliss. As the time went I increased my clasp and so did she..I could feel her all of her.. her heart beat her nervousness.. her shivers. her unspoken words that Oh dear where were you? I missed you.. it was silence all around except our heartbeats and our racing breaths. I don't know what made me but after a good pause I kissed her. She clutched my fist. She responded. After some time I broke up & whispered “I love you” and she whispered back “I love you too“ looking straight into my eyes. Her eyes were deep.


We broke the hug and sat on the sofa. She was careful of any incoming to the room so was I. I handed over the roses I plucked.. and said “for you. Sorry couldn't get anything other than this.. that too from your garden.  But these were the best in the bunch.” She smiled and took it from my hand. {I could have kneeled down and like they do in movies but I didn’t. kept it simple silly!} We talked..  being close sometimes holding her hand sometimes playing with her hair. I pulled her to my... {wait now if you are expecting details then am sorry! I am unable to remember them and then they must be something private which I can’t write here too even if I remembered. Already I have written so much of sleaze that the post may need to be censored. So sorry for that.. okay just for your information we did many things that you imagine the protagonists do after DoorDarshan diverts the camera to the lamp or something else even before they kiss}


Don’t remember what happened. She went in. it was late morning. I could see the other PG or the owner don't know showed their moves. I came out of the guest room and was enjoying the view in garden. Suddenly she appears not in her night suit but with a salwar followed by a lady. she was looking gorgeous her sexiness has turned into her beauty. I guessed she was her mom and she was. As she introduced us I bowed my head. She smiled & looked at her. Then followed a middle aged man. I look at him and again bow my head. He had no mustache. I then cheekily whisper in her ear that I was thinking your dad must be having mustache. And then I heard her mom saying to his papa "he is good". I nudged her. But I felt blank. I nudge her again. Again blank. No one was there. Flabbergasted I looked for her. Where did she go? And I woke up. The clock was showing 3 AM in morning. I smiled. Took some water and laid on my back. My eyes were getting closed with the smile that was still prevailing on my face.